Life ain't tough at all, its just a process

2010, is a really tough year for me.

First at all, I am currently a year two student, no longer a year one student who able to enjoy honeymoon year. All the subjects is just tough and assignments no longer can copy and paste directly from internet, every thing I have to do it by my own including research, analysis and assuming.

Secondly, I am facing serious financial problem. Actually it is not really serious too, just because I decided to go Singapore and I don't want to spend too much money that given by my parents, so I have to work hard to earn money to save more.

Thirdly, I am having serious health problem. I have no idea whether is my spinal cord or muscle pain. I have a serious muscle pain in my heart area last time when I was senior three, and now I have no idea whether is the spinal cord or muscle pain, just in the waist part. I have spent much money on curing my sickness including transportation fees, went for two doctor, eat 3 medicines, and apply 2 creams + buy the salonpas finally. But none of them seems effective.

Fourth, I am not allowed to cycle, but the main transportation in Kampar here is cycling. I tried to take bus everyday, and it costs me RM1.40 per day. Lets assume if I take bus everyday?

I am a vegetarian and I do believe in god. I insist to maintain as a vegetarian no matter how hard and tough the situation. Every time going out with friends, the dinner is always the problem, where to eat and what to eat.

I am being entertained by some of the people, even though they might just asking or fooling or teasing or whatever in their mind, I don't like it. As well as other vegetarians, they all are facing the same situation and the same fella. However, it is my principal now, no one can defeat me by teasing or challenging me. their mouth is on their silly face and I don't think that they can defeat me in this way.

Last year, Kampar has only one household selling vegetarian foods and the food is damn expensive. I have to spend about RM3.50 -RM5.00 each meal. I just treat it as a challenge in my life. It is impossible for me to eat there everyday and every meals because I have to face and entertain invitation from friends -- go out eat. Every time I reached a place, I will first look at what kind of food I can eat and everything I make it successfully. 1 rice, 1 egg and 1 salad. Other people might start their conversation and gossip about my food and start entertaining me. In KFC, McD, any franchise restaurant, I can find the food that is eatable for vegetarian.

However, I met some vegetarian that give up and fail to proceed as a vegetarian. They are defeated by the tough situation, clowns, financial or whatever problem. However, I think that they are actually giving up themselves. Those tough situations, clowns, financial, distance, boyfriend, girlfriend, or whatever, are just a reason for them to give up themselves.

I have an advice for everyone here. Do not think that you are the only one in the world who having tough situation and problems. It is just about your own problem for not facing it and choose to run away from it. This is because you always have a way to face it, just depend on how willing you are to face it.

In conclusion, I am just 19 years old. I am not suppose to think like an adult and I should act like other 19 years old guys and girls that go for fun everyday, enjoying themselves, spend the money given my parents or PTPTN. However, I choose to face my daily problems instead of searching for fun in my life. I will be tough for my parents and my future.